Lost my wife who was also trans like myself, trans woman. She was 39. She felt she came out too late at 33. That, losing her ex wife who turned out to be psycho, all her friends, religious hateful parents, trapped in a transphobic job she had to work six days a week almost thirteen hours every day, she was there for a decade and they consistently treated her like crap. That, plus this administration, it was all just TOO MUCH FOR HER. And it's almost taken me with her. But please, do not give up. We cannot bring you back, no very much how matter we want to. I'm more upset that she's gone than how it's affected everyone after the fact but it's utterly destroyed me, and they even used a picture of her from a decade ago in the obituary. And no one even knows her name. It was Faye and I lost her on January 7th. Much love girls 🫂

The first step might be to just get off Twitter. It's not worth being on anymore. The world will always be bad and it'll always have issues, you don't need to be fully on top of all of it.

"Sometimes it all just feels...pointless. But it's not. Not if you have people who care about you. Good memories can do a lot. Hold onto them."
- Kinger
The Amazing Digital Circus

Remember, we are always here for you Nyara~ ❤

Stay strong. We love you, so very much. ❤

This is the mechanism of the genocide. To try to make living so intolerable that you do their job for them. If you are ever feeling like giving up, hold on. If not out of hope then out of spite. If they want you dead they can damn well do the deed themselves.
This wont last forever. It is already falling apart. You can outlast it, you can outlive it. A better world can be made in the ruins of this cruel, broken civilization. But only if you make it. We need everyone to make it, and that includes you most of all.

Girl, you're on Twitter??! That's like one of the Caelids of social media, you need to leave it STAT!

Social media is a tool of the administration to make you feel like large scale change is impossible.
It is possible, it just isnt done online.

All the anti trans crap in the news got me pretty damn depressed rn, honestly.

You need to take care of yourself better Nyara, log off Twitter a bit, just disconnect, spend a few days watching an anime, take a vacation, and if you need to work, hell how about we do something different? just hop off valorant a bit, play a story based game single player do a few streams like that for a few days, just you and us and take a break for mental health  break, you deserve it more than anyone and I don't think even your subs who dislike that type of content will leave if you just take a break to recover.

You come first, always, if you aren't well and if you are gone because of a breakdown who will do what you do? no one, but you won't be able to keep going if you don't take a beather when you need it, no one is made of stone, and you take far more punishment than most trans content creators because of always being in the sights of rat boy and his goons.

We are here for you Nyara, and we'll still be here if you take a few days for yourself ❤

I'm not trans so can't relate to ALL (however I am a femboy that wants HRT/voice training) of what you are saying. But what I can say is I've always seen you as a strong woman who stands up for what's right. I heavily admire that, the trans community and the LGBTQ+ community as a whole needs voices such as yours. What you do from here is up to you but please take a break from the internet or at least twitter, that place is a toxic mess and it makes it seem like the world is worse than it is. I hope things do get better and from looking back at history, it will eventually.

Stay safe Nyara ❤

I was getting overwhelmed just being on social media as a commenter, let alone being a creator. I had to delete nearly every account.

This Aussie trans girl admires you for speaking out.

You deserve time to heal. Please take care of yourself.

I never really felt dysphoric until i started to transition. That was when i realized i was always just off. After transitioning i got long bouts  of dysphoria. Its gotten better but its never really went away. Now my only regret is not starting sooner.

I don't know if I'd call it a crashout but if so then it's the most valid crashout of all time. Stuff is really tough right now.

listening to you makes me feel less alone in the world ❤

I send you and all trans people my support.

It's ok Nyara, sometimes we need to cry. We're here. You have people who support you.

I just wanted to say, thank you for all that you do. Know that what you share here helps many people get through their own issues, trials, and tribulations.

You say you don't have power?  I counter with JRR Tolkien!
"Such is oft the course of deeds that move the wheels of the world: small hands do them because they must, while the eyes of the great are elsewhere" - JRR Tolkien.  
For many, just being a voice in the darkness is enough....just to know that you are not alone

We will always have your back nyra