thank you for listening and holding space for this story 🤍 I continued this conversation in my episode about PTSD, self-blame, and anxiety after sexual assault which you can watch here: https://youtu.be/Jy0ZLc41TAA?si=HDWK3tEs_z9uBfts
I’ve also put all of my conversations about healing after sexual assault into the attached playlist "Relationships/SA"

sending all the love x

The fact that us women are taught that sex is supposed to be painful and not pleasant at all and that we're basically there to please the men is actually so fucking heartbreaking. I am so sorry that you felt like that and I'm so sorry that this happened to you. He sounds like an actual pos... and I really hope you found healing 💕

my ex boyfriend focused me to have sex and i tell him that I was ready for this and I don't want to do this and I tell him to stop over and over but he ignored me and keep going so I decided to break up with him because he didn't respect my boundaries and my values as a person I am 20 but I still don't want this to happen.

The worst part of this is that victims are always the ones to suffer more than the offenders themselves. They have to relive their trauma over and over again through explaining every last detail to so many different people just so they believe them, and then to top it off people call them liars. It’s so disgusting. I’m so sorry hun ❤ I was sexually assault when I was 14 ( 4 years ago ) and the offender got away with it. She was my age and was my girlfriend at the time. I got no support for it and lost all my mates, she didn’t. Even now it’s not talked about. I had to go through the PTSD all on my own, it doesn’t help that she was a girl and it isn’t taken as seriously.

I’m so sorry for what happened to you. It’s so sad women have to go through that. I feel like the fawn response is the most traumatizing because we keep telling ourselves ´´well, I didn’t fight so I let it happened’´. I realized not long ago that my boyfriend at the time raped me repeatedly and it’s been a rough healing journey

I relate so much, thank you for sharing. I am so sorry that it's not safe to crave connection, affection, fun without being re-victimized :(

It’s been six years for me. Still trying to process. Thank you for sharing, it really helps other survivors process. Sending you so much love

Thank you for sharing, you’re so strong ❤️ talking openly about this topic is so hard but so important. I really can’t talk about it and have never told someone. But hearing your story makes me feel like I’m not alone in these experiences. Big hugs. You’re helping so many women by raising awareness about sexual assault ❤️

I’m so sorry this happened to you. You’re very strong 💪❤️‍🩹

The poor treatment is a good sign they are a jerk. So Sorry to hear this, you are brave girl. Move forward with caring loving people that deserve to have you in their lives. Lots of Love Kelly XO

Proud of you for sharing your story with us ❤

I really appreciate this video, I was recently assaulted and I’m going through a period of obsessively watching sexual abuse related content in order to feel validated, similar to what you mentioned

I’m not sure you’ll see this but it’s so inspiring to see someone thriving after such a horrible experience, and I hope you know how much it means to those of us who are still processing their experiences.

Thank you for sharing 🫶

I went through an extremely similar experience and it also took me so long to understand it and also ptsd… even though I went to therapy, it was shit therapists… I figured it all out on my own. Thank you for sharing

Sending so so much love and support I am so so sorry for what you have been through and I am so so sorry for everything that you are going through xxxxx

Women go through a lot of similar situations.😪

Thank you for sharing them. Helpful and very Brave of you. ❤

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I will be back for more of your story.

thankyouthankyou.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It takes a lot of courage to share stories about abuse, trauma, and extreme pain, but it is an empowering way to bring awareness about the topic and stop others from facing sexual abuse and emphasizing that it is never okay or acceptable to abuse anyone. I am very sorry that you went through that pain. Praying for you.

I've had a similar experience during sex in a bad relationship, iI would never say I was it's sexually assaulted, but when you sleep with someone that you know doesn't respect you and there's an understanding there. You just feel very used afterwards, although men instantly feel different after sex, just cause of physiology, but I would think beforehand I was sitting next to this person puts a knot in my stomach, and here they are trying to touch me, and I say, i'm not in the mood, and they tell me", well, I'll get you in the mood.I'll make you like it" , it's more of a pr for self esteem that means personal record. I know there's a much different trust that most women have when they have sex. So I can't say how anybody else should feel, but I did not feel sexually assaulted. I felt more like I let myself down and I sold myself a lot less than i'm worth. I am totally healthy now.Or else I wouldn't be saying this. I just thought you all might find it interesting from a man's perspective. Thank you

Sister I heard your story, it was distressing and painful. I am with u ❤. I am now a days studying these type of sexual traumas and here I found ur video. Sometimes whn i listen story like sexual crimes, I even feel hate for my gender(men). I hope that u may feel good enough, stay blessed, have faith and succeed ❤. The  thing I want to share u as a gift is, that the boundaries that every human should have for sex, with their consent. I feel that religionIslam gives every human that boundaries in perfect way. It encourages contracted relations right after puberty(even at 14) by both individuals consent ,has a way of quitting/ divorce ( by any side men or women), along with values of respecting every women( giving one glance with lust at one is even impermissible, and is considered bad). And yeah it discourages kinda dressing sexual or being too open with opposite gender, but that is just to not give the man(because all men are not educated, or good enough to think, care second person) any type of sexual trigger that he may misuses for forced sex.
Id love to talk if u express any thought about all this.😊

you are so strong.