The worst thing about life is when ātoughā is no longer the right word. There comes a point where life becomes unbearable.
Youāre surrounded by people, voices, conversations, and noise, yet somehow you feel so alone that itās hard to even sense your own existence. You start questioning whether youāre living or simply moving from one day to the next.
Every morning you wake up carrying the same fragile hope that maybe today will be different, maybe today will hurt a little less than yesterday. But as the hours pass and the sun begins to die behind the horizon, reality returns. The same emptiness. The same silence. The same weight on your chest.
And then it repeats.
Again.
And again.
And again.
Until it feels as if weāre no longer waiting for better days weāre waiting for death itself. Not because we want to die, but because weāre tired. Tired enough to imagine death as the only thing left that might finally put a hand on our shoulder, pull us close, and whisper,
āI told you everything would be okay. Here I am.ā
You know the shittiest part of all of it. You have something to look forward to and that moment is when it just ends. You go through life doing nothing but enduring pain and wait for the day you can finally stop hurting.
The amount of energy it takes to say IM FINE over and over again when all I want to do is disappear. but I don't want my mom to feel the hurt of losing a child so I got to fight the pain everyday but once she's gone I don't know where I'm going or what ill do.
You were right, but you were also wrong, you were loved but you were also hated, you were seen yet they made you feel alone, it was perfect when everything was right but is wasnāt when things were bad. They said they cared but they only cared about the version they fantasize about that you can be. You will heal from the pain you are feeling but before you can you have to sit in the pain and understand your wrong doing, change yourself for you. Become a person that deserves what you want because if you feel like you deserve something and you donāt change yourself to get that then you will never have that. Donāt be scared of change, be happy, become love, express joy, and become something great!
Iām at point in my life where I donāt have anyone around anymore, my girl left me just because things got tough. I got betrayed by my best friend who i trusted the most. I cry some days and somedays I just be like fuck it
Thing is what would be relatable is actually real people talking about loss not actors in movies. Itās almost like we canāt or would rather relate to actors in a scene than the person who suffered loss in real time
The thing about life is it is a gift, precious, powerful, special, unique, brief, long, important, hard, difficult, painful, happy, loving, terrible, miserable, joyful, happy, sad, cool, great, horrible, atrocious, abhorrent, memorable, simple, complex, "whatever you make of it", it is everything that we can think of it as and so much more. It is something that we don't fully understand.