I have been a porn addict for awhile and it's time for me to repent for good and follow the teaching of Jesus Christ our heavenly father! World is temporary, eternal life with Christ is forever.
Even though I know I've done horrible things, I have not been able to find the sorrow in my heart. Please pray that I am able to shed tears over my sins.
Brothers and sisters tomorrow this week Tuesday Jan 28 in the morning at 10 AM Eastern standard time my son's father Harold Pfrender will be having his bowel surgery the reversal of his ileostomy bag. Please pray with me that the Lord will help the surgeons to perform and complete the surgery with excellence and perfection without any problems or complications whatsoever. Also, please pray that Harold's vital signs will remain strong and his heart will remain strong. Please ask our Lord to protect his lungs from filling with any mucus or fluids of any kind and that the Lord will protect him from organ failures blood clots strokes and infections. Please please ask the Lord to spare his life and to extend his life and to restore all of the muscles throughout his body and all of his strength and energy and all of his health and for the Lord to bless him with a long healthy life to live to see and partake in the soon rapture. Finally, please ask the Lord to make Harry's bowel's function properly and to be healthy when they reattach everything. He is only 59, and his son and I and his mother love him and need him, and we don't want him to depart from this world so soon. Thank you.Thank you with all my heart for your prayers.
I've repented, prayed for miracles, and used words from the bottom of my heart to believe in my prayers.
I've experienced the grief and sorrow he's talking about. Its the worst, it makes me feel disgusting in my own skin. And it's a very heavy feeling.
After continuous deliberate sin and choosing temptation over God, I've grown numb. I dont feel that conviction anymore. I feel unworthy and don't want to pour out more lies that im going to change.
This scares me, I feel distant and disconnected without a way of knowing how I can return to the light and what needs to happen in my life for me to truly repent and put an end to my sinfull life to live in Christ.
That's why I pray for miracles because I continue to fail on my own, and when God extends a hand, I dont take it.
Im trapped in this viscous cycle, and I fear that it's going to cost me my soul.
Out of all Orthodox content contributors on the internet this priest stands out to me. There is a salt of the earth sincerity he has that is hard to come by. Christ is in our midst
I'm going to download all of Father Spyridon's videos, prepare an optical disk archive, and put them in a safe. I fear such teachings will be banned from the Internet sooner than we think.
Lord Jesus, please forgive me and anyone who reads this of our willfull sins. Hold us close and guide us to repentance Lord✝️ save us from thoughts of dispare and our own rebellion.
I fell hard back into relapse with pornography, I've repented and failed, repented and failed, I felt like a total failure the most recent of these times, and this video randomly popping up has me hopeful that I can pull myself back up and maybe even quit semi permanently
" The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18 GENUINE REMORSE over your sin will bring you to the place of BROKENESS...then watch The Savior build a kingdom out of your ruins.
I may not be Orthodox but I thank the Lord for the work you do here, your videos have always been a place I know I can go to seek wisdom in the struggles I face. I pray that the Lord continues to bless you.