OpenTube

8 Reasons You Don’t Want to Recover from an Eating Disorder

Kati Morton

285,340 views

Here are 8 reasons that you may be afraid to recover from your eating disorder. As a licensed therapist who specializes in eating disorders, I've worked with many patients who are afraid to get better. Let's talk about the 8 common reasons someone may be afraid to get better and recover from an eating disorder. We'll be talking about eating disorder recovery, bulimia recovery, anorexia recovery, binge eating recovery, or any type of eating disorder recovery; or fears associated with getting help for eating disorders. Let me know what other types of videos you'd like to see in the comments.

PUBLISHED BOOKS
Traumatized https://geni.us/Bfak0j
Are u ok? http://bit.ly/2s0mULy

The best way to support this channel is to check out my sponsors and buy using these links:
Amazon: https://geni.us/4J8wb
Instacart: https://instacart.oloiyb.net/y2j2GB

ONLINE THERAPY
While I do not currently offer online therapy, BetterHelp can connect you with a licensed, online therapist: https://betterhelp.com/kati (enjoy 10% off your first month)

SOCIAL
X: Twitter: KatiMorton
TikTok: TikTok: katimorton
Facebook: Facebook: katimorton1
Instagram: Instagram: katimorton
Pinterest: Pinterest: katimorton1
Support on Patreon: https://www.katimorton.com/kati-morto...

PARTNERSHIPS
Linnea Toney linnea@underscoretalent.com

20 Comments

@lauragreene4560 4 years ago Pinned

Thank you for this. I am currently in recovery. I wanna get rid of feeling so bad and guilty all the time but at the same time I am terrified to lose my sense of control. I feel like my life will fall apart around me if I let this go. It's funny because my ED has already taken so much from me I'm not sure how much there is left to take. At this point in my life everything is about my ED , and I feel like I'd almost have to start from scratch in terms of my career, relationships, and living situation. It truly makes me question sometimes if it is worth it when this feel so much more comfortable. xx
I know you say to find other coping skills,

@roselynn6753 6 months ago

I’ve developed anorexia nervosa and it’s so addictive watching the numbers go down. I know I’m destroying my body just as much as I was when I binged but I don’t know how to stop

@AlexanderDavis-be1be 2 years ago

I just don’t wanna be fat

@Ashley-yy9jm 1 year ago (edited)

I get compliments on my body. Like people will say “omg your body is tea” and “dang you’ve lost weight” and I like the compliments and it makes me want to do more yk? It makes me feel good. I don’t want my family to know. Things would be weird and I would have no privacy anymore because my mom takes that away and I’m not ready for that yet

@passaggioalivello 4 years ago

Today, at work, a coworker body shamed me and then yelled at me because I tried to stand up for myself. Now I'm scared to go back to work tomorrow. Every time I think I found a balance, some mean people destroy my soul.

@_just_TK 4 years ago (edited)

#9. “Receiving positive external feedback for unhealthy behaviors.”

I went through a point where I’d go to the gym for 3 to 4 hours 5-6 times a week for the adrenaline high & I was getting constant positive feedback about how good I looked. I didn’t really care about the compliments but no one could understand why I said it was a problem and extremely unhealthy.

@lemon3mon 2 years ago

For me (with any illness) a big part of why I don't want to get better is because I know people will stop caring about me as much and I'll have to deal with more things that I don't have the capacity to withstand. "Oh your a little better now, have these responsibilities you're not ready for" just because one thing got slightly better doesn't mean existing by itself isn't still beyond unbearable. Everyone always says they won't stop caring when I get better, but every time it's like they've checked me off their list of things to do and move on to the next thing. If I stay sick, they have to keep caring, right?

@plainsong76 4 years ago (edited)

What about eating disorders that start off as “traditional” Ed’s (like anorexia) but turn into a weird disorder where we are medically stable but continue to eat the same foods day in and day out? I feel so alone in this regard. I’ve had my Ed for 28+ years (I’m 45) and it has ruined friendships, relationships, etc. 😢

@darya4828 2 years ago

I’m in recovery, not constantly thinking about food and weight loss anymore. It is liberating, there is more to life than body size, I’m happy to be out of it. Finally 🙏❤ in my case I got the freedom through the 12 steps.

@lucyblanks2048 4 years ago

I have an ED and I have been told by my psychologist that I need to stop exercising and eat double the carbs for the next week… the alternative was going to hospital! I am scared and it feels like a lot to deal with at once but at least I can try to recover from home. 😌

@terrinoggle3893 2 years ago

I've been everything from restricted eater, bulimic, binger. Don't want to pass on obsessive behavior to my daughter. I'm 52 now. While i don't purge or restrict like in past, I'm still dealing with body shame and getting used to a different shape. Learning self love is a lifelong educational experience.

@BroAshley 2 years ago

Currently, recovery feels like “failing” at being successful in my eating disorder. Now instead of anorexia, it’s changed to some other type of ED and I’m lost.

@Ajgirl1991 4 years ago

Yep. Me being overweight keeps me safe. Men stay away because they find me unattractive. Food has been my best friend and my protector. And I'm only allowed to be strong.

@FrankieUtka 4 years ago

I started to tear up when you talked embarrasment. I've never heard of others feeling that way too. I often feel so ashamed that I have one that it's feels embarrassing. And I didn't realize why.
It's nice to know that it's not just me.

@Hereismytwocents2011 3 years ago

All of these situations are so relevant. I'm going through an eating disorder, for the second time in my life. I just started therapy, and was telling the therapist that if I lose the disorder, then I feel like I lose my identity. I want to get better, but I don't want to go back to be the "invisible" person I was before.

@Call_me_Fred 1 year ago

not a ed but the first thing that enter my mind when thinking about recovering is "if I get better, was all my suffering in vain?" Like, I've spent years, DECADES even struggling for me to say "Yeah i'm fine now"? (I haven't watch the video yet)

@seelengoldt_rawcake_manufaktur 4 years ago

I am 3 years into recovery. I suffered for 10-12 years with my ED. It was my identity but what I can tell looking back. All the moments, friendships, relationships I lost because I chose my ED, will never come back. So recovery is the best decision I have made.

@larag1764 4 years ago

My old therapist used to tell our group to 'just sit with that feeling' instead of pushing it away or down. I hated it but now understand it - and can do it !

@mrblaque215 4 years ago

As a 39 year old man, my anorexia made me feel safe and indestructible. Why? When I would fast for 5-7 days a week (taking in only nicotine, water, and black coffee), my mind/body were in survival mode. Mentally, I felt sharper even if I felt “brain foggy” from not eating but being amped on stimulants, and if I encountered a challenge I was able to sit back and solve the problem because deep down my self destructive behavior allows my nihilism to always rationalize, ie: “If this issue can’t be fixed, fuck it. In 100 years, we’ll all be dead. And nothing we’ve done, are doing, or will do, will matter.” It’s scary how this disease normalizes itself to our psyches.

@k1c126 1 year ago

I have been struggling with bulimia for years. My life feels like a constant of purging and binging. Depressive episodes, self harm, anxiety. It's been a lonely and heavy burden to carry. At my worst, I would walk 50k steps and limp for hours with blisters on my feet. Today I finally my therapist about my eating disorder. I have tried recovering many times on my own, and I will keep trying until the day I die if I have to. I’m hopeful I will succeed this time with the help of a professional. I sincerely wish that everyone will be able to heal from this disorder one day. Because this world has so much beauty to offer, and life is so much more than numbers. Sending love to you all.