This is gold. Thanks for posting. I'm forty two and looking towards Rokudan in about two or three years or so. I would say I was also guilty of trying to falsely emulate senior level kendo without the requisite life experience to justify it. I also had a problem shifting from the teaching mentality during shiai and shinsa to the "this is shobu" now mentality. I failed my first attempt at godan for this reason. So, this sort of guidance is exactly what I'm looking for, at least for the longer term.
Your channel is a veritable candy store of great kendo related videos.