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That’s his real daughter, Willow. She’s in a few of his videos. She’s what keeps him grounded. In the video she brings him out of his “monster” form. Him looking around at the destruction he just caused is always heavy. I really needed this today. Thank you 🖤

I’ve watched so many reacts to this and you’re the only one who keyed to “Every single ffff day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified” and honestly it’s the line that absolutely cuts me to pieces

The 2 lines that always hit me the hardest are "I crashed my car just to feel again" and "falling into love with falling apart"

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This song... I heard this song for the first time and it felt so personal to me, didnt know why, didnt really understand the song just listened to it musically and not what he was talking about.
After a few times through i realized that it felt so personal because the song could have been written about me. The uos and downs of depression i pretended i didn't have for most my life.

I live that the song follows arcs that people mentally follow when dealing with this... Build up, then it just chills out then build up then chills and then just explodes suddenly and unexpectedly.

I'm a big fan of your channel, and really found your reaction to this fascinating (though I expected nothing less.) Your take on the courtroom and the term "Popular Monster" were VERY insightful and something I had never thought about before. This song hit me hard when it came out and the more I listened to it, the more I caught. The message I take out of it really relates to what I experienced in my late teens and early twenties. The main chorus "I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer, I'm a popular monster." reminds me of the struggles I had telling people about my depression. Every time I tried I was met with "Oh, it can't be as bad as you are saying..." (I'm a liar) or "You're just making an excuse..." (I'm a cheater) or "Well, if you went to church more..." (I'm a non-believer). It was like everyone in my life had an easy and popular reason to dismiss my strugles. I was in fact... a Popular Monster.  And it caused me to hide that part of me, which almost ended me. That makes the line "What if I were to lie, and tell you everything is fine, every single day I grow closer to the grave... I am terrified" hit me SO hard. I was inching closer to suicide every day, and no one would listen and I was scared to death. Luckily I eventually found the right help, and now I'm in my forties equipped with the proper tools to fight my depression. Keep up the GREAT work on your channel!

This song really hit me hard when it was released. I wasn't in a good head space at the time and really I reflected on the song thinking I became a monster closing myself into my depression because I wouldn't go and talk to anyone about anything. But ultimately I think I realized that wasn't healthy and then started opening up about whatever was going on. Music really connects to me in more ways than I thought were possible

Been going through as many "react" views of this particular song to see if I'm crazy and you've nailed the concept. I cant express how frustrating it is to catch a line that hits home and they pause it to talk about something they actually missed. Thank you and please keep up the work!

Creators take note, listen to the song with as few interruptions as possible (DONT ANALYZE EVER SINGLE BAR) to the actual song and then break down your feelings because 90% of us are HERE because we want to feel validated, not entertained.

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I love your bunny ears, and I love falling in reverse I love your reaction, honey. I’m 70 years old and I cannot believe these guys.

As someone who has dealt with SERIOUS depression... I really loved that you said "depression does not equal sadness"... I'm currently on Prozac and that's helped A LOT with my intrusive thoughts...  That's my biggest problem. I'm not "sad", my brain is just BROKEN, and I get all kinds of CRAZY ass thoughts...  It's REALLY GREAT for someone to be talking about mental health like you were in this video!!🙏🙌🙏

loved your react to this. i love this song. and it hits me hard. i've gotten better over the years but i've been through alot. mentally and substance abuse both. i'm glad i got through it. and i understand what you  were saying about kinda closing yourself off...

I feel this song so deeply, PTSD from military with some severe depression. He really goes through the many different ways depression affects people.

I can relate to the praying for a solution and feeling nothing. I was raised evangelist and do believe there's something out there but had to make a decision that I was going to have to do something myself because no matter how much I prayed nothing ever changed.

I will say that I grew comfortable in my chaos and the first time my life wasn't in crisis I felt incredibly uncomfortable because I wasn't used to it so I would inject some chaos into my life. I didn't enjoy dealing with the crisis in my life but it felt so familiar that I'd feel better if that makes any sense.

8:37 - These lyrics - "I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again, CRASH my car just to FEEL again. it obliterates me, disintegrates me annihilates me".... I have felt those urges. So relatable!

Id reccomend the song "pray" by jxdn.
It made me tear up a bit, never happened to me to have that reaction with any other song before.
It talks about suicide in a pretty straightforward way

Man, this song gets me hard. The buildup, and that line, "Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified"... makes me tear up every time. Just the desperation in the delivery of it and relating to it. I AM terrified sometimes, and I feel like that isn't something that is talked about much when discussing depression. Anyway. I always really like your reactions. Keep going.

(Also I'm still litening to your commentary at the end: I can completely relate to your lack of believing and faith. It's not a rebellious thing just like you said. There's just nothing there inside.)

Great reaction my friend!💕

I love your channel and your mission. The word needs more music that helps with mental illness and awareness of such. Music that acts as therapy and acts as a healthy conduit for which to channel our emotions.  Thank you for bringing attention to the many conditions that are blanketed under the title of "mental illness". For my own escape from the "well", I began composing instrumental music that helps me with my own demons and seems to help others as well. Thank you!!!

Glad to see you’re still making reactions. I love falling in reverse.