mending seporsi kekalahan apa seporsi mie ayam?

"It can't be that bad" i said, then i was shot 59 times.

it hurts to lose all of your closest friends.
we were the weird kids in 8th grade, so of course we related to each other. thats what made us such great friends. but.. it's all my fault.. i was a dick.. i miss them so much..

these are litteraly my fav songs ever.

1.the night we met
2.the winner takes it all

I miss the old version of my self 😢😭

Finally That person leave me with life time taruma):

I miss our laughs together, I miss you so bad. I messed everything up, and you won’t forgive me. You don’t owe me anything. But how much I miss you. I want to die, bc everything reminds me of you. You’ve tuned into this different man. Maybe it’s what I deserve , but it was you and me . I was raised to be what I was and I realized everything too late, you begged me to change , to stop. You stayed by my side way too long. But now that you’re gone I feel like I might die. I want to not exist. I want to empty my limbs into a cliff. I want to drain you from my mind, you and all romantic hopes bc if it wasn’t you, then it won’t be anyone.
I will never kiss again bc my lips were saved for you. I would never look at anyone in the eyes bc all I would see is the absence of yours. I would never let anyone see me, bc the only one who truly saw me was you.  I could never let my hands be touched bc you would’ve kissed all my cuts. I would never be with anyone else,  I am not meant for anyone that’s not you. I’m saved for you for the rest of my life even if you don’t want me anymore.

I'm missing someone that wasn't mine...i'm missing mom... i'm missing the old me,where hapiness was my friend,football,friends were like my hobbies...it is like i'm missing my 16,17,18,19th... i'm missing the life back then!

"I had all and then most of you some and now none of you" hits hard. because i progressively lost him, and it hurts, it really fuckin hurts because, even tho we are young, i loved him, with my whole heart and id do anything to have my baby back.

Aku dengan seporsi kekalahan dengan seporsi keikhlasan aku tetep nekat mencintaimu meski semuanya sudah selesai aku tidak peduli dan aku nepati janjiku aku tidak akan jatuh cinta lagi dengan siapapun kecuali  kamu 16 juli 2026 jadi saksi semuanya selesai tapi aku akan datang lagi untuk seporsi kemenangan tunggu aku di waktu yang akan datang percayalah semua ini bukan selesai tapi hanya untuk sama² memperbaiki diri masing masing i love u 😊

Its at 4:12 btw if youre here looking for the part from tiktok

By mistake i chose to  watch  the paradise of thorns now I'm crying hard

5:04 if you're are waiting for another song

I loved you since we were little, ever since my parents helped yours get you into school. I trusted you, I loved it when you came to play at my house. But it turns out you're just like your parents. You secretly hated me, you envied me... When we were little, we used to play together, telling our friends who they liked best. I told them to choose you to make you feel good. I even wanted you to be like a sister, but your hatred and jealousy made me realize what you're really like and that you don't love me the way I loved you. You just took advantage of my innocence at that age, when I thought the world was a bed of roses. But I don't blame you at all. I blame myself for getting attached to you from the beginning, knowing your parents hate mine. But it doesn't matter, I don't blame you at all. Thank you for being my friend for once, even though it was fake.

Suatu hari kita akan mendapatkan apa yang kita impikan

kegagalan bukan lah sebuah kekalahan namun itu termasuk bagian dari sebuah perjuangan

Leo, gracias por todo. ❤️‍🩹

3 days ago would have been our 8th anniversary, but for once, since some months ago I don't miss her, another girl came, and not like others, she actually made me feel alive in a good sense for the first time in 8 years, she is making me feel like God gave me a 2nd chance, and even tho it is hard, I will do everything I can so I don't lose her and to make her happy being with me, but still I am human, and I got fears, mostly that, without her love I really won't be able to stand up again, and well this message has no real purpose, but being like a prayer, God don't let this relationship end or go wrong, because I'm too tired to fight for myself, if you have mercy on me I will give you all my glory, and well if you don't I will be another story of a 20 yo forever. I love you H.

you win, i miss you.

dont give up future me YOU GOT THIS



























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