PLEASE PEOPLE FEAR THE LORD AND OBEY IM PRETTY SURE I HAVE BLASPHEMED THE HOLY SPIRIT. I Am terrified this has happened to me after repetitive disobedience and the final time i disobeyed he gave me one last chance to repent and do what he was asking me to do. I had to preach to people but I kept on choosing fear of man over fear of God and was some days deliberately was not going out of wasting time, fear of man, cowardice, etc. everyday I said I would repent and was warned and felt conviction and panging on my heart. Recently I was speaking with someone and did not properly speak on God and the Holy Spirit left me in that moment and I felt it the minute I sent a specific message to them failing to have this information in them. I felt the immediate shift but did not realize at first. When I realized I no longer heard conviction and panging on my heart I panicked and knew this meant he shut the door. The Holy Spirit has not fully left me yet and I feel a tiny flame but is slowly departing more and my heart is beginning to physically feel cold. I am terrified and regret wasting my time and now I may be doomed forever. I can not sleep. I am terrified of the wrath of God I will face. I WANTED TO REPENT BUT LET MYSELF STAY STUCK BC OF FEAR OF MAN AND WOULDNT REPENT OUT OF FEAR OF MAN EVEN THO IKNEW BETTER. ILET MYSELF BECOME A FOOL SAYING IMA REPENT TMR IMA REPENT TMR AND NOW I FEEL AND HEAR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. MY EAR KEEPS RINGING ALMOST EVERYDAY AND I AM TERRIFIED I SAW THE PATH I WAS GOING DOWN BUT STILL DID NOT REPENT AND KEPT SAYING I WOULD INSTEAD OF JUST MOVING. NOW I HAVE LOST THE HOLY SPIRIT AND AM DOOMED 😭😭😭😭😭I RESISTED HIM LONG ENOUGH THAT HE LEFT AND NOW I AM ABSOLUTELY PETRIFIED