Ok father. I will do my part

Im getting ready to shut my self off to the whole world again

It's open what ever it doesn't matter I'm going to sleep

#7)  You were strong for me.  I can be strong for you, too.

#10)  If anything, I'm not worthy of you.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE FAKE THRUTH!!!!

#8)  We are partners.  We can take turns.

That is ok I've got the same stone

I have been trying to get through to them all day but I can't get through. They think I have ignored him but I haven't .

#2) You keep the child safe, like I do little Jill.  I hold her hand when someone else doesn't.  I will listen to that sweet child like you were sweet to me, too.  Thanks for being so open to me.  That took a lot.  It helped me re-focus.  You and the child Terry are worth it.  Don't lose that child in you.  I haven't lost mine.  We learned from that.  My mom was not mothering until Mark was born after me.  She looked at Joan & I like pesky sisters.  Only Mark unlocked her mother instinct.  She did the best she could.  4 girls and my mom the oldest, only her older brother Bob got spoiled.  Not my mom, the 2nd born - maybe Alice, the youngest girl got after my grandfather died.  It was hard work to keep a house & 5 kids back then, with her husband on the road all weekdays.  My mom & dad were born in 1921.  Your mom was alone with 5 kids & Harold on the road, and your mom so young.  She did the best she could.  We have to be grateful for what we did have. ❤

I'm at least trying to show up but I'm tired of being the only one that keep there word I don't make promises 😮made to be broken

Thank you for telling me your confession.   I will be here tomorrow my friend 😊  Sweet dreams tonight!

That is not at all the truth. Why did they do this to me?

I'm  listening, open  to  a  new relationship and  moving forward with my life. Angels 😇  I need  help  financially. I  would  like  to  get me and my family  ( daughters) out of the situation I'm living in. Im tired  of  living  in  this toxic situation. It's  tearing me and  my family apart.  We need  to  separate ourselves  from  the  toxic situation we are in.  Angels 😇 I need ur help and protection from everything  around  us. I don't  know  what  to  do  anymore.  I cry myself to sleep  I hurt on the inside while  being  a  fake on the outside. Have nobody to open up and talk to  no where to go or stay,  don't  drive. Please  🙏 continue to watch over me and my family.

#4)  Trust me again, Terry - is never wanted to leave you.  I wish I had met you before I did Bob.

HELLO .. SOLMATE .. I'M GLAD THAT U RIGHT .. WITH KINDENESS WITHOUT SUSPECTING IT .. NOT .. TO BE SKEPTICISM . AMEN

Tell me. I am here with you now.

No, they had completely changed. We were getiing together soon. This is just an excuse. Thank you for telling me. I am devastated. This is almost as bad as being physically and mentally abused. Why did you hurt me like this?

I'm needing to lay down now

#11)  I collected expensive artist dolls and soft sculptures(stuffed toys) just to deal with my pain.  I read I should get a hobby after my divorce.  I felt so defeated, like a death - not that I was in love with Bob by that point/but I couldn't just stop loving him cold turkey.  I was still trying to keep loving him, hoping him, keep him from going back to prison.  I was trying to do the right thing.  He was your brother - and it broke you first him to go to prison.  You were both angry.  That's why I talked to Fichter.  So we both got him out, when I think about it.  I did it for you, too, Terry.  And the wounded child in me took me to ebay and collected more adult toys than any one 30-some aged gal should ever have ordered.  But it was therapy, compared to talking to one more shrink.