You know it’s bad when you used to look these up to make yourself feel something and now you can’t even force a tear

Was fighting for my life at my lowest but all my parents saw was an angry teenagers

Finally excepted the fact I’m at my lowest. My father told me that I was being lazy, the angry daughter. I tried to explain that I really try not to I’m just not doing the best. He looked at me and said “you’re not depressed u just think you are, stop being a victim Lyla.” I don’t even know what to do. I think it’s time to finally right the notes. And just end it all.

0:17  I don’t even see myself next month let alone a year.

i have no one to open up to. everyone thinks im just in a phase or faking my depression.





i cant wait to die.

Im at the lowest point of my life right now, but i wont let anyone know because im scared of them being disappointed, or maybe they will just ignore me. It doesnt matter to me much..

i feel stuck in a loophole, i wanna ask for help but i cant, i dont feel important or my reason or being sad is an actual reason..

I used to be so passionate about one thing, and that was art. I’d draw and color for hours— fully neglecting my needs for food water or even sleep sometimes. I’d do this even at school. But it got to the point where my parents got mad at me for it. They didn’t like how I set aside everything for my passion, and even criticized some of my artworks, calling them unoriginal because I used references. Sometimes my siblings joined in. I tried to regain my confidence by posting online, (this isn’t my main account) but not a lot of people weren’t interested which made me even more discouraged. And I realized no one really cared at all what I was doing, no matter how much effort I put in, how much time I took. Now it’s summer break. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been unmotivated, tired, and just laying around and sleeping for the day and doomscrolling at night. It didn’t help that all the friendships I’ve built felt one-sided. So I barely went out and stayed in my room. This led to me getting shouted at by my family. But I couldn’t care anymore. I can’t care about anything not even myself.

Dad: "So you dont wanna go to school? You just wanna be on the couch laying everyday? Being lazy?"

There's a f-cking difference between being lazy and being exhausted. But of
course I can't say anything bc my dad would get mad! So I js say "no.."!!!
I honestly don't even care abt life anymore. I hate my life sometimes and the only ones who can make me feel better is music and my best friends who actually care.

I’ve missed you, hope you’re doing well.

2:38  “it was my cat..”

just turned 18. Never thought I'd make it past 16. What a feeling

1:37  I rely on my cat ❤

Vent:




I’ve just told my mom how I’ve been feeling lately I’ve been suicidal and it was mostly because of how my verbally abusive nana has been acting and how I was scared to tell her my problems but now I’ve let my guts spill my mom and dad are going to be helping me but my nana is most likely gonna make things worse and I’m planning on going to my grandmas funeral on my dads side and there has been a lot of family drama so seeing them will be hard for me and especially my mom…

real bro

When my mom found out i was cutting she screamed at me took my phone and didn't get me help and she blamed it on tiktok😢

0:25  she actually bullies me for no reason. She laughed at my grandad having cancer.

omg your back. im so glad youve posted again. i hope youve been well <3

I tried to tell people about what I'm going through but they made it about themselves or just turned me away, I now have no one else left just me and my cat. And apparently I can't have privacy or mental problems because I'm just a minor, say that to me when I'm hanging from the ceiling.

I hate myself but I love him.