The beginning of summer always starts with an unfair deal.
The first guest arrives and settles against the wall of the room without knocking.
Whenever I turn off the lights in the room, the buzzing sound invariably reaches my ears.
Every night, I wonder why such a small, short-lived being shakes this entire, massive room.
Watching that relentless straight-line approach, finding the thinnest skin to pin down precisely, I suddenly look into my own heart.
My inner heart, too, is bound to helplessly whimper and cry out whenever night falls.
Wandering in the void, not knowing where to go, it eventually reaches the edge of the weakest and softest memory, only to stab itself—it is remarkably similar to my own appearance.
Trying to catch a mosquito, I find myself clapping my hands alone in the empty air. All that remains after that crisp, sharp slap is the awkward warmth of my palm.
Perhaps what I wanted to catch wasn't the mosquito, but the clumsy sounds of my emotions that linger around my ears every night, irritating me.
Why do we always get so anxious about chasing away things that cling to us more vividly the more we try to avoid them?
Even though I know it will itch immediately after being bitten,
sometimes, even that itch feels like proof that I am alive, so I just let it be.
By tomorrow morning, a red, swollen mark will remain.
The night when my heart wept so loudly will also eventually pass, just as the itch subsides.
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The beginning of summer always starts with an unfair deal.
The first guest arrives and settles against the wall of the room without knocking.
Whenever I turn off the lights in the room, the buzzing sound invariably reaches my ears.
Every night, I wonder why such a small, short-lived being shakes this entire, massive room.
Watching that relentless straight-line approach, finding the thinnest skin to pin down precisely, I suddenly look into my own heart.
My inner heart, too, is bound to helplessly whimper and cry out whenever night falls.
Wandering in the void, not knowing where to go, it eventually reaches the edge of the weakest and softest memory, only to stab itself—it is remarkably similar to my own appearance.
Trying to catch a mosquito, I find myself clapping my hands alone in the empty air. All that remains after that crisp, sharp slap is the awkward warmth of my palm.
Perhaps what I wanted to catch wasn't the mosquito, but the clumsy sounds of my emotions that linger around my ears every night, irritating me.
Why do we always get so anxious about chasing away things that cling to us more vividly the more we try to avoid them?
Even though I know it will itch immediately after being bitten,
sometimes, even that itch feels like proof that I am alive, so I just let it be.
By tomorrow morning, a red, swollen mark will remain.
The night when my heart wept so loudly will also eventually pass, just as the itch subsides.
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cs@hostless.co.kr
✦ Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7HnTK...
✦ Apple Music
AppleMusic: hostless
✦ Hostless Official Online Store
https://hostless.co.kr
✦ All music in this playlist is created by hostless using AI, composition, arrangement, and AI.
Thank you :)
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Composed & Arranged by hostless
가장 먼저 도착한 손님은 노크도 없이 방 벽면에 자리를 잡습니다.
방 안의 불을 끄면 어김없이 귓가로 찾아오는
왱왱왱, 소리.
몸집도 작고 수명도 짧은 존재가,
어째서 이토록 거대한 방을 통째로 흔들어 놓는지 밤마다 의아해집니다.
가장 얇은 피부를 찾아 정확하게 침을 꽂는 저 지독한 직진성을 보다가,
문득 내 마음을 봅니다.
내 안의 마음이라는 것도 밤만 되면 속수무책으로 잉잉잉,
소리를 내며 울기 마련입니다.
어디로 가야 할지 몰라 허공을 헤매다가,
결국엔 가장 약하고 무른 기억의 언저리에 가닿아
스스로를 찌르고 마는 모양새가 참 닮았습니다.
모기를 잡으려다 허공에 대고 홀로 손벽을 칩니다.
짝, 하는 명쾌한 마찰음 뒤에 남는 것은 손바닥의 민망한 온기뿐입니다.
어쩌면 잡고 싶었던 것은 모기가 아니라,
밤마다 귓가를 맴돌며 나를 자극하는 서툰 감정의 소리였을지도 모릅니다.
피해 다니려 애쓸수록 더 선명하게 달라붙는 것들을,
우리는 왜 매번 쫓아내지 못해 안달하는 걸까요.
물리고 나면 이내 가려워질 것을 알면서도,
가끔은 그 가려움마저 내가 살아 있다는 증거 같아 가만히 두고 보게 됩니다.
내일 아침이면 붉게 부어오른 자국이 남겠지요.
마음이 잉잉잉 울어대던 밤도,
결국엔 가려움이 가라앉듯 그렇게 지나갈 것입니다.
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