That effort wall between you and "things you want to do and somehow can't" may be part of ADHD. Which is of course only made worse by reality being wholely chaos

I can relate to this heavily. For months my back log has just grown and no matter how many life changes that I want to happen happen, I always feel like I’m stuck. The only thing that really helps is watching Gurren Lagann and just trying things sometimes. Even if I don’t get far in my backlog, just chipping away at one game at a time adds up

This literary made cry, hit too close to home. Good job

I'm in this video and I don't like it

One thing that I have seen recently, at least with regards to my own mental wellbeing, is that the handful of tips I found for helping my own state of mind before the quarantine still apply.

A frankly embarrassing fraction of my mood on any given day is governed by how much sleep I've had (both the last night and over the past couple of weeks) and how well I've stayed hydrated.

Obviously there are all kind of long term stresses to deal with at the moment, but I do think it's important not to forget the basics, even if they happen to be different basics for each person.

Sounds a lot like impending burnout, my friend. Be careful pushing through that wall because you may not be able to come back from it for a long, long time.

So i think a lot of people here myself included had or are having this problem or any kind of variation, here is a couple of info and tips that help me:
-Sun! Like go out out the window and take 5 minutes of sun, there are chemicals that activate motivation for evolution purposes.
-basic health always help a lot, exercise and hydratation and good eating are a exelent way to get better, just carrying a water bottle is good enough
-jack off, a lot
-something that helps me when im feeling lonely and calls or text dont help is to listen to randoms on vrChat (did you know it can be played without vr?) Its nice to listen to strangers and kick in that akward feeling of meeting new people
- speaking of new learn stuff, I kind of programed the algorithm of youtube to throw me random things and it helps to kick the mind into thinking and not getting stale
- move. The body feels better and is naturaly rewarded when you just move, yoga exercise dance are the common go to, but strech even a little, be aware of your body, take your shoes off and feel the floor, meditate if you can (i 'll link an alan watts video in a comment that taught me how to, best 14 minutes of my life. Gp gray has an amazing video to organize a routine even in close environment
- for holy gabel's sake put the phone away, turn it off as much as possible, only produces anxiety
- picking up old hobbyes or learning something new is fine but have you ever slept regularly? Helps with the feeling of time repeating, apps that reduce blue light in computers like f lux or twilight for phones help with destressing the mind, if you have a window let the sun wake you up or just tell your body, write down dreams to inform to the brain that is important even if you don't have dreams lately(write down you didnt have any. Sounds silly but trust me, random citizen)
-for video games if you play life games lige league of legends, apex, destiny and the likes, and you feel like you cannot stop or else you are missing out, just be aware of that feeling, give it a good thought
-feel free to put any other things that helps, both links will be in a comment below, if i misspelled anything im typing from an atari controller (nah im from Argentina)

Man this one hit home.

This made me feel less alone in what I’m feeling. I don’t play many games, but lately I found myself rewatching Great British Bake Off instead of shows or movies I want to try for the first time. I relate to the feeling of wanting to be creative but being stuck

Really appreciate your vulnerability here. You articulately voice so much of what I’ve felt before. Wish there was were easy answers - but at bare minimum, appreciate you opening up and talking about this kinda stuff. It’s a weird time right now, and it’s okay to go easier on your self. Hang in there!

Just wanted to say thank you for your words on the movement, it really means a lot to hear a creator on here speak so openly, and awarely about their position, privilege, and what we're fighting for. Thank you so much!!

Feels like cosmic coincidence that I find this video after I've played a short visual novel called Moe Era, it's a simple romance anime visual novel that really opened my eyes to certain personal flaws I have about myself because of certain deep topics discussed that I never expected from it.

A character in it talked about both loving and hating time, because she enjoyed spending her time doing the things she enjoy, but realising all things have to end eventually. "I love spending time, but time will never love me back." it's a quote which still sticks to me as I write this comment.

Just wanna add to the ranks of people saying I feel this whole video in its entirety
I'm trying to edit a video and its just hard to push myself to get any of it done, and finding that motivation is so spotty, and it makes me really upset with myself

Not only has this entire video hit close to home, but I felt like you were describing me when you got into Apex.

I feel you buddy.

I don't think it's surprising that you've returned to the games you have returned to. Sure, some games can be used to turn off your brain completely (and One Finger Death Punch IS excellent at that), but the return to titles like Beyond Good and Evil, or Prince of Persia seems to me analogous to picking up a favorite book, or watching a TV show for the 1000th time. It's safe, it's familiar, and you know exactly what would happen when. In times like these, that can be valuable. So long as you know that that's what you're doing, I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

I also don't believe the fact that you finished Fire Watch is a coincidence either, I've played it, and I loved it, but it does have a very distinctive flavor. The best I can describe it, Fire Watch seems to me like a Scooby-Doo game, first of all, it's short, it's a mystery game, and can occasionally be a bit spooky, but it's never really out to scare you. And not to spoil anything but the ending is... well, you know, you've played it. It's an easy game to pick up, and an easy game to finish. I'm kinda in the same place right now, and if I wouldn't have played it already, I might've gone into it. Much more likely then say, Nier Automata, which I do really want to play, but it just seems SO HEAVY right now.

Based on my experience the most important step is to articulate the situation for yourself, which seemed to be the whole point of this video. Once you've done that, you might find that know that you what you're doing, you'll also know what to do next.

And finally, and this goes out to anyone reading this: There's nothing wrong with seeking professional help if you feel that you need it. No one can tell you that you do, you'll have to decide it for yourself. But if you do, please act on it, it really does help.

Thanks for the honesty. It is much appreciated. The problem is that perhaps living in the virtual, games or politics, is like eating an incomplete diet. And so without that touch of the real we end up with the spiritual equivalent of rickets or scurvy. The answer lies in the textures and realities of the physical world. A walk through nature without any agenda or even a camera will bring to mind thoughts you need to focus upon. Likewise real world unmediated conversations with human beings will bring real world understanding. It's NOT easy anymore. Because our entertainments do so much for us now. Nature isn't immediate. Humans are messy. But if our window onto the world is primarily virtual we suffer the deficiencies eventually.

And then there is this quote by Blaise Pascal: “The only thing that consoles us for our miseries is diversion. And yet it is the greatest of our miseries. For it is that above all which prevents us thinking about ourselves and leads is imperceptibly to destruction. But for that we should be bored, and boredom would drive us to seek some more solid means of escape, but diversion passes our time and brings us imperceptibly to our death.”

The willingness to allow ourselves to be bored in order to face ourselves. Interesting concept. Takes courage.

Omg! This is so relatable I was on the verge of tears! GAAAH! ITS OKAY! It's okay dude. Its okay that when the world is shitty, we take the time to care for ourselves in order to help others later. Honestly I cant help but wonder if we dont take care of ourselves can we really care for much else or care at the kost we could???

I am addicted to the internet/computer/video games. I am closing now on 1 full year after finishing high school, I have done nothing valuable to me in that whole year. I wake up every day to sit at the computer in my room, until late at night, then go to sleep and repeat. This is not life, this is what living death feels like. Even when I was still in school 99% of my free time for the past 7 years or so was like that. I attribute many of my faults as a person (zero motivation and willpower, anger, no patience) to this addiction that I've come to see as what it really is in the past 3 years. This is why I really don't like the glorification and obsession of what I perceive to be the majority of people surrounding the use of digital media as a means of "escapism". escaping life is not possible nor healthy to try in my opinion, it has only hurt me in the long run. dealing with life and dealing with your mental health in a constructive way, is healthy. ignoring "life" for a couple of hours will only make it more difficult when you return. instead of escapism, let's try REAL REST, instead of running away from a problem and from challenging ourselves, maybe we should try to use that time to strengthen ourselves as people, learn, acquire skills, achieve goals, work through our mental dimension instead of ignoring it, work on actually making ourselves more mentally healthy, because escapism doesn't do that at all. shutting off until a later point in time doesn't grant us the tools to survive and thrive in the future, using the time we have to treat our bodies and minds right, to work with them, will prepare us for what is to come. the world is not getting worse. we are getting worse by choosing comfort over the harder path of doing what's good for ourselves, of working it out instead of running away from our problems. escapism, passivity, is the easy path, the easy path to a worse life. These are my thoughts and opinions. Be strong, and a good life to you.

I hope it helps to tell you are definitely not the only one who goes through this. I have often traced my feelings of overwhelming to my backlog. I turned games into a chore trying to focus and knock them out quickly or slowly. For me, the feeling I’m chasing after with games is that of my childhood when I had no responsibilities and forcing myself into something pushed me away from it. I try now to simply play what I am motivated to play and try not to feel bad if I’m in the mood for something else. When I’m feeling ready to come back to a certain title, it will always be there waiting. Thank you for sharing. You’re awesome and I loved your candor in this video. I think you approached everything very well.

I totally feel you. I went from working the equivalent of 60+ hours a week to staying home 7 days a week in the span of a few days. I was left feeling completely hollow, because I had essentially ruled escapism out of my life, because every minute of my existence required that I be productive in some way, whether it was by listening, by working, by studying, or by actively resting so that I could be productive enough the next day. Everything I did was about performance, and it was necessary to do so, because the life I wanted to live required that sacrifice. And I was prepared for it. But I was on the path towards a burn out. My energy reserve was so thin, I was worried that I wouldn't make it to the end of my semester, because I couldn't even fathom making it to the next week.

The pandemic was a slap in the face. First, financial worry, but I was lucky enough to be in a country where I quickly received support. Then, solitude. See, I live alone. I live alone, so that I can be more productive, so that no one can get in my way when it comes to accomplishing the things that I have to accomplish. It's completely messed up, to see the people around me as potential nuisances. But they were - are - because a lot of what surrounds me beckons me to slow down, when I know that the key to what I want requires that I work harder.

So I figured that I'd use that time to prepare for my Master's. I listed dozens of articles that I wanted to read, and intended to make a short summary of every single one, so that I would be able to do everything faster once the seminars started. I really meant to do it. But I only read half of an article so far, because I feel so profoundly sad and confused. I'm not in the US, and so my political worries are much less soul-crushing than yours probably are. However, this pandemic has indeed separated me from my family. I resent them. I most likely had COVID around April, and I was very sick, but they act like it's just a really bad cold and keep gathering in conditions where I can't join them. I feel left out and alone. I'm tired of being at home, but I don't own a car, and even if I did, I don't have anywhere to go.

I've been watching a lot of superhero movies lately, and playing a lot of superhero games. I dream of a world where my existence is meaningful. I dream of a world where I am not tied to things like money, or where I live, or whether or not I have a car. I dream of being a man, so that the few times where I do go out, I don't have to go back because creeps keep scaring me. All in all, I went from actively rejecting escapism to essentially swimming in it most of the time. I avoid almost everything else. And I can't fault myself for being that way, because even when I analyze it from the most objective perspective, my life is simply not very fun. Nor is it very fulfilling, or meaningful, or headed towards something better - between the impending recession, the rise in rent, the growing distance between my family and I... there's very little to look forward to. I'm worried that I may even have to give up my video game studies, when people stop investing in video game research, and I am unable to find work that pays me more than minimum wage.

I don't know. I wrote a lot, but the Internet has become our new public place. Watching superhero stuff makes me feel good. And sometimes, when I feel good enough, I turn off the game for an hour or two, and I vaccuum. Or I pick up the Hannah Arendt book that I started a while back and read a page or two, and I learn new things. Or I write to someone I love - my friends, my lover - to know how they're doing, because they've become my new family. I try to appreciate those small steps for what they are in themselves - rather than obsessing over the amount of hours it took because I did those things. And it works a little. I'm better than I was a few months ago.