That summary matches mine too. I'm 'on the scale' but whereabouts exactly varies with the wind.

Thank you for sharing. It's always fascinating to compare notes, as it were!   I spent a long time thinking that I couldn't be transgendered as I had no discernible gender dysphoria. (The term "transsexual" (like "transvestite") is generally avoided now, I think because it's associated with more hostile and less understanding times).  But then I discovered that whilst being transgendered is always explained in terms of "wrong body" gender dysphoria, many transwomen just don't feel that. There are of course those who do, who hate their male bodies and feel genuine discomfort in a male identity, but for others it's not that being male is uncomfortable, but that presenting as female feels more comfortable, euphoric even.

I actually had this conversation with a gender therapist on YouTube a few days back. She was insisting that all trans people are at least "mildly dysphoric" even if they don't realise it. But to me this is nonsense. As I said to her, one chair or bed can be more comfortable than another without the other actually needing to be "uncomfortable". To me being trans means simply that there is something about a gender identity or identities other than your birth one which resonate with you and/or give you a feeling of rightness that that never did or can.

Where someone goes from that realisation will vary. Trans is a spectrum, with full transition/surgery at one end and at the other perhaps nothing more than dreams and fantasies.  And with all sorts of genderfluid and non-binary branches too.  Some will move along/across that spectrum as they self-realise and grow, and others will find a point where they can find their best balance of life. It's not, as others might have it, a "slippery slope", and realising you are on that transgendered spectrum doesn't mean you will necessarily take one step further along it.  Though since you said your ideal is still several times more frequent Heidi than you currently manage, I hope you find ways to make that happen.

And if that seems impossible or unlikely right now...  two and a bit years ago, I thought I could never ever come out at work. That my self-spun fantasies of "having" to live and work as a woman every day would always be just that.   Yet now that is my life. And my working wardrobe! :)

Like always you are so BEAUTIFUL !!!! Thank you for your positive supportive words

Your wife must be thrilled and delighted with your lasting improvements , under her care.

You are lucky to have such an open minded and wonderful wife. Happy 2022 and thank you for being you.

Healthy, happy New Year to you and your wife. Wishing you b both all the best in the New Year!!!!

What treat to see a happy girl enjoying who she is.

Happy new year!

This video reminds me of the movie Dr Jekyll and Miss Hyde, and on second thought I remembered you made a video along similar lines...😁

And yes, to this day I never stopped dreaming about becoming a woman, and will watch/read anything about gender swapping etc., although my go to "daydreaming method" is playing roleplaying games, where I always create a female character!😉

Nice❤️ dress👗 btw!

Oh my gosh! I was the youngest of three with two older sisters too. When my adolescent desires to dress up hit it was wonderful having access to so much girly clothing. But I had to be very careful to put everything back exactly as I found it! Thanks for sharing your story with us and Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year to y'all.  I totally understand what you're saying and feel the same way

Happy New Year Heidi. Enjoy your videos and look forward to Phox Fridays.

very cool!! I LOVE all your videos and stories!! Happy New Year! XOXO

Absoulty stunning in that dress... ❤️❤️

Wonderful video as always!  Love your channel so much!

Have a great weekend too Heidi and a Happy New Year!

I hardly subscribe, but this channel I instantly subscribe. watched 4 videos and absolutely great.

Thank you for the book recommendation, Heidi. I just finished the audio  book, and I found it very interesting. It was also very sad and disturbing hearing what Nicole had to go through growing up and just wanting to be herself. It's great that she had the support of an amazing family and that things got better in the end.

While not the same as hers, the story also made me think of my experiences and feelings growing up. Like you, I'm not transgender, but I learned from a young age some of the differences between boys and girls, and not feeling completely in line with the male stereotypes or expectations. I'm mostly comfortable as a male, but I always felt that I some female side to me and I'm glad that I can express it and show it off now like I wasn't able to back then.

love your heels -Susan !

Hi Heidi, Happy New Year!  I loved the story about Nicole and will have to look it up.  When young,  my Mom would paint my nails red and apply light makeup, dress me in little girls dresses she made herself from dress patterns and materiel she purchased at JC Penny.  Thanks again for sharing and selecting that pink lace dress and gold heels.  ....one of my favorites.  May 2022 be filled with blessings for you and your family.

Happy New Year to you Heidi. Hope all is well for you and your family in the new year.