Very inspirational man. It took lots of courage to do what you did. I just think 2 months of training is not enough at all. You need at least 3-6 months before considering your first fight. But hey, you did it. Next time you'll be stronger, more relaxed, and you'll use that lose for motivation. I'm following your journey. Wish you the best.
Get back in there, loosen up and let some combo's fly. A loss isn't just a loss, it's a learning experience. You have potential to be great, it takes heart to even get in the ring in the first place.
Just went through the exact same feelings with my first grad school interview, it was brutal. To cope, I'm trying to focus on all the things that experience taught me. If you never stop learning one day you'll be unstoppable!đŸ’ª