I used to have a similar mind set: I'm wasting time, potential, ect. Then, once I hit my 40's, lost my ability to have kids and went into Menopause, I began to realize something.   I realized that this feeling of wasting time, being unproductive was something that a consumerist society had drilled into me.  We are taught to be productive but at the same time it saps away our ability to just live, to exist, to actually sit down and experience the natural world around us that we are a part of.  If you are able, listen to what your body and mind are telling you when you are in a lull.  It might just be your natural rhythm of being.  The problem doesn't lie with you, it lies with the box of societal standards you, I and so many others have been forced into.
I hope my rambling made at least a little bit of sense!😂💜

Edit: the highs and lows you experience could be a result of autism and ADHD.  When that Dopamine hit's you have seemingly boundless energy and creativity.  Once the Dopamine wears off.... that's when the lows come in and if your anything like me you want to crawl into your nest and be left alone!
I have a healthy mix of autism, ADHD and PTSD.  Everyone's experiences are different, everyone's brains are wired differently, but knowing this and doing some in depth research on the subject it made life a little bit easier to navigate.

Dear Faeriewood Witch, I completely relate to that which you’re saying!! I too have been struggling~ Thank You So Much For This Video, It Helps To Know Someone Understands💝 PS Your Kitties Are LOVELY!!!

I love ur colours lighting mood or dark mood video style pls keep up🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️

I love your videos 💚🌿🪴🪾🍄‍🟫 They bring me so much joy and calm energy. I love your authenticity & honesty. I really resonate with what you spoke about. I have been away from my channel for a long time due to the high expectations that I put on my channel. You have inspired me to create and share what feels good in the moment, and to honour the season that I am in. ✨ Thank you sister. 🦋

We are just saying hello to spring,  yes 5hat feeling when you  start to prepare for hibernation. Thanks for sharing x

Story of my life

Wonderful ♥️. This video is giving peaceful vibes ♥️. I like all of your videos ♥️

I'm like you too ....low and high ...but i learned that this helps me be more grounded and grateful!I There is always light after the darkness..
Blessings to you too!

Blessings to you also 🧙

I love this!!  I love your honesty!  Your kitties are a highlight:)

You are back 🤩. Ask yourself what can I learn from cats?
Are they always in a high energy mode and running around like crazy? Enjoy your high vibe mode when you are superactive and find a way how to just vibe... it's like ebb and flow. 🌻

Well, I do had some creative block before the turn of the year, but I don't know why, this year, 2026, the energy feels different, in the early weeks of january, I had a burst of creativity, not only new ideas, but some new points of view that helped me to improve old ideas, because of this, I bet this year may be my most creative year since 2008 (the year I first ventured in creating things, not only for gaming but for everyday life) :face-purple-wide-eyes:

oh so magical! this is my first autumn down south so I needed this

Your beautiful world paired with honest thoughts and reflections makes this space feel so much more safe. To dive wholeheartedly into a pressure free and authentic way of creating would be so freeing. I struggle too with presenting as whimsical and wonderful when I am also a melancholy soul. But I think that’s such a beautiful thing, embracing both the beauty of light and dark. 🤍 Oh, the ramble session I am on! Lol. Thank you for this lovely video, Kasey. I am so jealous that magical, abundant autumn is headed your way! 🐞🫖🍁

Hey Kasey, I sent you a message on Instagram. Beautiful video ❤

I totally understand how you feel, cause I’m feeling the same things lately. It’s not that easy, it’ll pass. What’s most important now is to show yourself love and understanding. 🫂💕