I’m tired of everything.. I relapsed, being 2 months cleaned and I lied to my therapist saying that I’m fine. I get called “chopped” or “fat” as if I didn’t already know. I’m sorry I can’t have the perfect body you want me to have. “Oh just try dieting” you think I haven’t tried? I have, I’ve also tried exercising for over a year and it didn’t work. I can’t starve myself because my parents force me to eat. I’m tired. I’m so god damn tired.
I’m turning 13 at midnight. since the age of 6 I’ve had mental health issues, always felt like a burden. Parents fighting over me. Etc. not so nice. but my friends don’t care, no one does. I’m there for my friends but they are never there for me. and im scared I won’t make it to 15.
Does anyone else have a fear of not you being in love but your friends?? Rn i have a friend who asked someone else out they said they would reply in the morning due to them hurting from band camp and stuff. Im so scared that 1. The boy will say no. And then shell be depressed and 2. That he will say yes and she wont stay with me anymore. Shes the only rl person beside my d&d group to message me all summer. She means everything to me and the last time my friend of 7 years ( online ) got a bf she doesn’t talk to me much anymore. I LITERALLY WHENT TO HER STATE AND MET HER IN REAL LIFE. And one of the first things she said was dont talk abt her bf. I cant have that happen to me again. Im so scared. And I thought i was aroace and now discovering again. Im just really scared of losing another person due to a bf or gf..
Hi im 14 and i havent been able to focus for years now. its been blamed on my phone (has been taken and i still cant focus.) Blamed on me being lazy, and other things, and everytime i bring it up my parents start the lecture off by shutting me down not trying to understand....... so um i researched things that were wrong with me. why i have to stop every second to break, why my mind races all the time, why i cant focus, why my brain needs constant stimulation and changes the way i need it everytime i can finally stimulate it. ive been told by people "did you take your meds? i have extra" and me being confused because my family refuses to believe in mental illnesses or neurodivergence. ive been told for a total of 3 times by medicated people i have adhd. i think that im just a stupid person now and me thinking that that is even a posibillity is wrong because of how i was raised. due to my research i look not for a title, but a cure? i just want my parents to be proud of me and stop calling me lazy, i want to stop hearing different versions of myself mixed with random things in my head every night i sleep and every day i find my self to think (all the time). ive grown to hate my body. hate my smile. hate my thought process. and people period, for making me feel this way in the first place. i cant go get tested because like i said my parents dont beleive in this. i have an old sould and its really dissapointed in me for not knowing what to do.
could someone please help me? i dont want to die this way, and i dont think i can take this much longer.
I was just chatting to my long distance friend (I started going to a different school), and she confessed she attempted (and she told me it was because she missed me and stuff). Today I came back from a different friend's sleepover and she confessed she was currently harming herself (she didn't tell me why). Now I feel like shit, crying on my bed.
First vent vid I’ve seen with a diabetic, I’m a T1D myself and it makes my emotions switch up so bad. One of the reasons I’m in therapy. But, these rlly help me. Thx<3
i’ve never had an amazing relationship with my brothers- it’s not a bad relationship just not average ykwim? “the morning after you take your life your brother will punch a hole in his wall but he will never cry bc no one ever taught him how” im actually sobbing /gen
27:35 srsly. people cant js normalize su*c*de and think they can get away with it. a sixth grader (12) in my school literally unal*ved herself after being bullied by my grade and the 8th graders last month. people are actually annoying when they normalize ts. i hope they get what they deserve after realizing the damage they had done onto her and her family. she was also really pretty and looked so nice to be friends with. i always saw her in the halls and i never got a chance to say hi. i hope she is peaceful in heaven, and i pray for her family and friends to be well.