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TW // general depression

❝You know when you're drowning, you don't actually inhale until right before you black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's like no matter how much you're freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head's exploding. But then when you finally do let it in, that's when it stops hurting. It's not scary anymore. It's - it's actually kind of peaceful.❞

— Teen Wolf

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I edited about 98% of this video a few months back, when I first became obsessed with this song, but I put it on hold for a bit because I had a pretty full schedule as it was. Now, I feel like I've got a lot of empty posting slots coming up, and I got re-obsessed with this song, so it fit. Plus, you all seemed to really want to see it.

This video is kind of depressing, I know. The song is beautiful but heart-wrenching; I hope I did it justice. I didn't go nearly as dark as I originally thought I would, because these videos are hard enough to edit/watch as it is. Essentially, if I could get the feelings out there without using the triggering content, that was the route I was gonna go. Luckily, I think it worked out?

Footage is from And Then There Were None (BBC), Broadchurch (ITV), Harry Potter (WB), Testament of Youth (BBC), The Cry (BBC), Dracula (BBC), Doctor Who (BBC), The Magicians (SYFY), A Discovery of Witches (Sky One), Humans (C4), Agents of SHIELD (ABC), Sex Education (Netflix), Prodigal Son (NFOXBC), Love Victor (Hulu), Scream (MTV), Teen Wolf (MTV), Riverdale (CW), The 100 (CW), The Royals (E!), Euphoria (HBO), Killing Eve (BBC), Supergirl (CW), Peaky Blinders (BBC), Lucifer (Netflix), Years and Years (BBC), Captain America (MCU), American Horror Story (FX), Skins UK (ITV), Spinning Out (Netflix), The Avengers (MCU).

Music is Trauma by NF.
Colouring is mine.

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I am not liable for any emotional distress this video may cause.

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20 Comments

@SunnyVids Creator 5 years ago Pinned

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@imawalkingheadache3903 6 years ago

“we are all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer” someone in the youtube comments.

@yesididdietodaythankyoufor6252 6 years ago

"I hate it. I don't want my life to be this hard"

Feel that, but I wish I didn't.

@laurenm354 6 years ago

that stiles voiceover in the back is one of my favorite moments. such a powerful scene

@annalise4189 6 years ago

"Just cry, just cry, why can't I cry, I couldnt laugh and smile for a while but now I can't feel, let me feel something, just let me live"

@destinycano4416 5 years ago

Some say these only make my depression worse, but these express the emotions I feel inside. It is these videos that make me realize I’m not alone in this fight to survive

@Toocoolforschool573 5 years ago

“If you never heal from what hurt you, then you’ll bleed on people who did not cut you”

Misha Garg

@AnneSoshi 6 years ago

trauma is what i have after this

@Chris-xx6sw 6 years ago

"If I am not hurting myself then I am hurting someone else" Just by the way I feel and feelings well they suck and what sucks more is that I can't control them

@katewhoa 6 years ago

I'm so confused what the universe wants from me. I am not strong enough to keep going anymore, but theres this one person I feel like I have to keep going for and I cant leave him.

@itsjiminsnonexistentjams1221 5 years ago

“People who were born pretty, someone told them, so pretty how pretty, so they same themselves as pretty”
“People who were born stupid, someone called them stupid, so they saw themselves stupid”
“People who were born fat, someone called them fat, so they saw themselves as fat” and

....”someone who was a monster, was called a monster, people saw them as that, so they became a monster”

I was wondering why people hurt themselves and others.

But I also wondered why we couldn’t...that’s what I was curious about.

@kyraconway8921 5 years ago

I just wanna let go. I wanna be let go. I want people to stop caring so i can give up without feeling guilty that im hurting everyone

@AnneSoshi 6 years ago

but okay now, this is extremely sensible. the kind of thing that can only come from an extremely sensible person. the scene selection, the quotes, everything is so touching. thank you. for sharing this, legend.

@warmhearth 6 years ago

I’m gonna...save this for later

@seamitchell 5 years ago

I'm here because I feel suicidal at the moment. I know that's not great to hear but for some reasons seeing some of my comfort characters like this makes me feel like I can take another breath.

@Leida-g2c 1 year ago

Funny how these kind of videos is better at describing how I feel than I am

@kayceeLux 4 years ago

When I have an anxiety attack I always put this one on. I cry and I feel better

@gleer1380 6 years ago

Everyday i wake up constantly feeling like I’m drowning in my own tears, crying because i feel like i have no purpose on here. It’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to be mad. But having to feel like this everyday isn’t good. I feel so lost. I feel numb cause i can’t feel anything as if I’m fading and feeling numb. Hearing things, not being able to sleep. I feel so unloved and unappreciated. I like to help others and making them happy but when i wanna be happy i have no idea what makes me happy. I constantly want to be loved, i know self love is best love but like i just wanna be someone’s joy, someone lover someone’s everything but there will always be a bad ending of them saying “I’m never gonna leave, i promise” and once they leave it’s like the promises they said they’d keep was never the truth it was a lit to fill my head with. Feeling like I’m never gonna be in love anymore.

@ayahajslema 1 year ago

4 years later I'm here again and the feeling of craving death has turned into emptiness and everytime I sleep I wish the next day never comes and when I wake up I stumble into the void over and over again begging God to make it stop.