you know, the more I listened to your story about how you started your channel, the more I thought back to 10th grade me. I pretty much had the exact same problem but without the homeschooling part. I was a pretty big soccer person, so you can imagine that I run a lot and kick things. One day during a game, my foot rolled over the ball and it smacked the ground right after. It was SUPER painful and I went to the doctor for an x-ray the following morning. They said it was sprained and would heal up in about 2 weeks. the pain got worse for over 2 months. I went back to the doctor and they said that it was beyond healing. the pain never went away, and I didn't know what to do. I started playing cos after school and got really into it, but that didn't last for very long. In 12th grade, I was driving and I was a victim of a hit and run. I ended up having to amputate my leg and stayed in the hospital for around 3 months because I had also caught a really bad sickness that caused me to need heavy medical care. My foot, now gone along with the half of my left leg, doesn't hurt. Although, much like your random painful times in your foot, I have phantom pain. It's pretty much where I feel like my leg is really hurting and breaking but it's not even there. I am living a happy and healthy life now, but we have similar experiences, Arby! Also, make sure to get some rest and don't force yourself to post just for us. We will be supporting you whenever you are feeling down or sick. Well, I hope you get better and I can't wait to see more of your content! (if you need to delete this comment then you can. I completely understand if you don't want other people sharing things)
33:25 I'm gonna cry. you sound so honest, and hearing your story you are honest. Thank you. It is so so so bad.
It took four years for them to aknowledge i actually was in pain. X-ray after X-ray after X-ray. ultra sounds. cat scans. Before they finally realised i had an extra bone and the tendons, and legaments, and muscles ruptered from that bone and was just there. floating around. four years. Then i got my surgery, and was bed ridden for 3 months no weight baring. My ankle is ok now. but those four years of limping have done damage that can't be undone and i'm always in pain now. Thank you Arby, so much for being honest and vunerable. And we love you Arby <3 I sound so para-social but it genuinely means so much to me that a youtuber i love, i am able to relate to them. As i was also a very lonely kid, the only friends i had from kindergarten to year 5 we're only using me as a back up friend and excluded me the rest of the time. I'm genuinely going to cry, omg Arby you are amazing and we love you. like, i can't express just how much this actually means to me. <3
arby i can’t lie, that speech of yours genuinely made me cry. i have arthritis, and i have since i was 9-13. i’ll probably have it for the rest of my life. it affects pretty much every joint in my body, but primarily my hands, knees, wrists and ankles. it’s actual torture, especially when it’s cold. but hearing you speak about having hope is just so wonderful. i hate being like this, but if one of my favorite youtubers can get through it, im sure i can too. you’re wonderful, arby. i’m so glad i found your channel.
34:34 wdym boring story. Dude your story is great. Imagine your right feet are broken and maybe thought it will be forever. Damnn if that was me i would have give up and lost hope.
39:09 hello arby it's me VifDragonne it was a pleasure to meet you and also it was a pleasure to have played with you and because I come across CC very often in the trading world than in the normal or hardcore world I don't really know what to say but very often it's YouTubers who help cheer me up and I wish you good luck and see you next time in a game and if you accept I can ask you as a friend